After that previous naggy, no-one-gives-a-fuck-life-post.
time to say how i felt ytd.
Well overall it was fun indeed.
No doubt.
Just that i do get annoyed when people keep fucking around with me.
when i didnt say a shit, they fuck around with me.
When i told them everything,
they still fuck around with me,
+ worst.
shouldn't have told them a shit. just decided to do so cuz i treated them as my better friends.
now regretted.
while doing a mini-road march,
one of my friend was talking about it.
i don't really find that talking though seriously.
i just found myself emotionally humiliated, and can't say anthing about it.
Yep, i know perfectly what i am doing.
and yeh i know what i'm doing is wrong and stuff.
But seriously, what make you think that you can judge?
Do you know the full story? you know what happened before and after?
you know no shit.
and right,
say the first time, i get it.
keep emphasizing it, i seriously do get annoyed.
but what could i have done?
i couldn't possibly reason it out, or explain it in my defence.
because all of these wont do me any good either.
they'll just think i'm the bad and weird or even 'desprate' one.
hahaha no doubt my current situation is definately dramatic though.
But seriously, i can't see any good friend's trait in any one except maybe one.
which is slowly leaving too.
Maybe my expectation is too high or seriously they just treat me as a laughing stock.
fuck it,
i'm always the one getting teased and made fun of anyway.
be it my size, strength, wits, and relation?
oh well, i guess i'm talking way too much.
anwyay wasting way too much time these days.
just wanna get home everyday after school to chill alone,
but just cant find the chance..
packed schedule!
sometimes super jealous of my bro,
army life seems so cool even though i don't know what they do inside there.
But seeing how my bro can come home anytime and chill,
listening to musics and stuffs
leading a carefree life for 2years,
makes me envy!
posted @ 12:43 AM |