Birthdays

It's 6 O'clock in the morning, Studying science got boring Brain told me to go to bed soon BUT FUCK I HAVEN FINISH MY WORK! meh, my foot, dun have to wait until 6 O'clock to get bored. the moment I start doing my work, iI got bored. Anyway, had my friends' birthday celebration just a few hours ago. I must agree that it was great, thanks to those who really put in the effort get these plans together. Sure these celebration serves as a form of bonding. especially to those who don't usually go for mini outing together such as myself, but i just feel that the $$ involved is abit off. 10 people, each one cost $20. in a year, it would be a 200SGD spent on birthdays. i'm not sure about my other friends, but i find it absurb. for me, my month income is barely able to cover my expense. Considering now that i have extra commitment, which in actual fact i dont spent a penny on her, but i still go out more often. Transportation cost me a bomb + special occasion such as mother's father's day and stuffs, each definately cost more than $50 without fail. every month now, i tend to withdraw abit from my main savings. I remember on an occasion when we were shopping for things to be added in a 'fruit' basket, which apparently some korean wine idea was brought up. so people were crowding around the shelf deciding to choose the $6 one or the $20+ dollars one. when asked for opinion, no one voiced except me, suggesting that $20+ is pointless, like she can fly after drinking or heal everything after drinking. He replid this 'aiya one person fork in extra $1++ only ma, you dont spend so much on your girlfriend la' fuck you, seriously i detest people who keep bringing up this, even if its joking. first i dont spend $ on her, second, expensive win =/= good, third it is irritating and make it sounds like all i care is her and dont give a shit for this, fourth, he doesn't has a brain. oh yeh, i seriously hate people who keep yaking about gf and stuffs. come on grow up, what's so interesting about people with a partner? anyway back to topic. as far as i know, many people with 'low' monthly pocket money basically just claims everything from their parents. clothes, study materials, transportation, phone bills, birthday celebration. but fucking not me. i'm given a fixed amount and i'm on my own. My point is, as friends is there really a need to spend so much on a birthday? isit not enought to just have a simple meal, where everyone could gather and catch up. from what i see, this celebration SUPRISE 'chain' which was initiated by me in feb, well, mostly planned by others are slowly shifting to 'celebrating-for-the-fucking-sake-of-celebrating' yes. so they got this system. whoever just finished their birthday gotta plan and organise for the next one. and well of course, everyone knows that they will be a well 'surprise' for them on their birthday. so i question, where is the surprise? True, if you argue that this non-surprise-surprise is not meant to be a surprise, but to show how much efforts you put in for the birthday, i would say, its not practical. if $200 per year is what is needed to show my efforts, i wont do it. Oh funny thing, so today there was a addition person who came. so one guy said: hey since we invited him, we next time also need plan his birthday hor. Yeh.. thats it. you might as well plan for everyone who saw those celebration pictures on facebook. My point here is not only about the money, but about the true meaning of celebration. oh yeh, on a side note, i find those people who plan a party and invite everyone a fool. lols now i'm gonna offend alot of people. this celebration thing is not just because of today's or more like ytd's experience. But from my general point of view. The first celebration at the start of the 'chain' will always be the most truthful and meaningful one. but people just like to keep it 'fair' so they continue, i got nth against this, but i just think that, the 'feel' is not there anymore. people are getting annoyed or irritated at some point of the planning. 'she think she princess can le, we dont have to treat her that way' 'she abit expecting too much ah' 'she like bo xim celebrate with us sia' oh yeh even more funny ones, not related to angry one but people actually 'requesting' what for their 'suprise' 'if buy cake buy from pine garden de black forest, its damn nice' i'm so speechless. to end this, i'm not against these celebration. sure it WILL continue until everyone start progressing in their life and scatter. I just find the meaning of celebration abit off the track. and is the $$ spent really affordable for non-working students with fixed income? good night.