Holiday depression is a real.
Birthdays, Christmas, valentines, black Friday, new year eve.
I always hated special occasions and this time was no special. The whole concept that you have to be spent with your loved ones on these days just amplifies my loniness. The saddest part is that you're depressed during this period, and all your close friends are with their loved ones and family. Having plans or hanging out with friends on these days can't fix the misery.
Today my feelings resurfaced and I let my depressed self get the better of me. I need to suppress and bury that feelings away. No one needs to see or hear about my insecurities.
I should've known.
I can't bear to make anymore mistake.
