i realised it sounds kinda emo.
nah no way! i am not.
after a bath and yeh! emotion back in check!
life is great!
now thinking back.. i kinda miss working on the bonding session man!
it was totally a great.. hmmm
i wouldnt say experience since i've done them couple of times already..
hmmmm okay i was a great recap for all those skills i've picked up in life!
but still there are alot of room for improvements!
1st: I HAVE TO GIVE WORK TO MY HELPERS!!!!
alright.. i found that after 5years.. i still didnt change much in this aspect..
but well as a strong choleric i am, i kinda hard u know..
the principle of me is 'dun wait for task given. ask for it!'
it is not quoted from anywhere like some people who like to act one chim quote other people sentence and put them of facebook. (l0ls!)
well so.. for me.. if u didnt ask for job to do.. i wont keep pushing you.
well actually i improved little bit. at the start. i did try to distribute jobs man.
just that i ask 5people to do. only 4person attually replied
and 2 out of the 4 person are crapping a whole lot of shits and in the end find a excuse not to do..
steady! i love singaporeans! woooo!!!
well so because of this.. i might as well do myself.. zzz unless i really cant handle that alone. i dun like forcing people nor i like being told what to do.
weird me. if i planed to do something and u ask me to do that before i excuted it,
i wont do it...
so well.. thats it.. gotta learn to distribute work AND make them do it!
2nd: communications! mass communication. contacting 60+ people alone aint no easy job.
sending out 60messages and while my phone is still sending, i received some replies, which got my phone to hang..
time to change new phone!
nah dont have the money... hais! actually got a target in mind.
sony Ericsson Xperia x12 Arc
OMFGWTF!! this is so nice! that design totally so simple yet unique!
more importantly, the camera functions! other function i dun give an F~
l0ls! the camera even tho its just 8, they have got real camera functions!
they have got BRAVIA's engine installed and also exmorR!!!
for this, we dun have to bring 2 earpiece out too.
normally sony's phone's earpiece need a special connector to connect to the phone.
this one is a normal 3.5mm audio jack!
shiok ah!
too bad. not out in SG yet.. hais when it release in SG comfirm price very sexy..
SO ANYWAY. YEH communications need improvement. next time, i should appoint someone from each 'clique' and just inform them to ask them pass down the message.
3rd: should have appointed varies post earlier.. those OIC 2IC log etc!
those kinda stuffs should be apointed before planning. so that they can plan their individual field, supporting my job distributions.. if they do it themselve.. it will make them have more passion in the work. since they do it THEMSELVE!
hais this time i just bao sa bao hai. cover mountain cover sea.
i am admin, logistic,OIC,game master's master, whats more?
oh yeh i gotta aknowledge someone latar(i purposely spell it this way)!
4th: i need to instill more dicipline in them.. the way they slack are too much! volunteer purely for the girls and cca point!! i. am. seriously. disgusted. even tho i dun voice it out.
right easy to say. but its rly hard. i mean they are my friends. and most of them are even older to me.. someon if u ask a person who is yyounger to tell me wat to do? i will cum in his face. nah just kidding. i respect everyone who deserve them
but well i must admit i did kinda able to gain some of the helper's respect eventually. which is quite a achievement. i thought i couldn't at first.
hmmmm only a couple.. who just kept joking around.. (actually only 1)
5th: MOTIVATE MY TEAM! hais! i kinda ignored this. cuz i was thinking 'they dun want do their problem.. no time to entertain them.. i just have to do it well myself'
l0ls thinking back now.. do it yourself? jump off the building you mean? l0ls happy cracking your brain joon houng 2months ago.
haha the report done seems kinda easy and simple.. seriously when you are actually thinking hw they should goes, its ot so simple.
sure its simple to come out with a timetable.. but whether they will work anot? hmm
i like to spend my time visualising stuffs while closing my eyes. to see what posibilites may occurs and tries to solve them before.
actually.. im kinda proud of some flexibility things i've done during the session. even tho they are small stuffs. it feels great to feel needed.
honestly.. i am not trying to show off or what. well im typing here not like any1 i know is reading so.
i think this bonding session will crash if i wasnt there..
my partner was great too, but if were to solo, may have some difficlties too
hmmm thats all i can think of..
oh yeh 1 more regret of this session is.
i lost a potential close friend.. =(
hmmm its kinda hard to say.. for me. friends which i can actually open my heart to currently is.. one.
during the bonding session, i met a friend, who i feels really good talking to her.
but well i haven said anything personal yet. just normal chatting.
oh yeh.. im totally not trying to find myself a girlfriend or whatever.
well so. i just think she is really a nice girl. those type who i would talk to..
hmmm today she kinda spotted me and ask why i was kinda moody,
haha wanted to try opening myself but then not in the hall la of cuz.
wanted to jio her dinner as a friend but she got cca after that. too bad
and so yeh, we are from different course, so i guess no more chance we'll ever meet or chat again.
kinda sad man.
since she is those who attend alot programmes and events. maybe to her im just another friend she met during these events.
hmmmmmm OH YEH!
just now while departing. i accidentally send a message which i think may have freaked her out. i typed this
'hais sian. you gt cca, want to ask you out for dinner' something like that.
and boom! she stopped replying.. omfg.. did she get the wrong idea? l0ls should i clarify with her not? oh man.. i should watch what i type man seriously.
hais..
oh yeh one more regret..
we didnt even had a group photo man.. i mean we like spent 3months together preparing this. atleast should take a picure for memory ma.. aiyo wasted.
thats all for today,,
omg i am totally insane.. 3extremely long post in a day..
clap..
actually i still got tons of things to say man!
last thing.. i am not a emo guy anymore!!!
i love this world =) (probably)
well atleast i can still feed my stomach when im hungry and have a home to return to.
im lucky!
LML!
