Sometimes I just feel like screaming at the top of my lung, shouting and let out all my emotions, let all the built up stress, guilt, regrets, and frustration escape. It is so hard to bottle all up and act like nothing is going on. Idw anyone to see me in my down state. But it's so hard to maintain. I really need to breakdown. If I do it anywhere in Singapore, someone will probably. Call the police though. Lol.
I'm so scared. Afraid that she'll say 'I think I shouldn't go over'. That'd be the end. I'll probably go crazy, and end it right there and then. Tmr is the decision day. This is too much fof me to handle...
