The last sentence she said to me in real life was 'faster go faster go, walk the other way don't let my friends see you!'

The last messaging sentence she said to me was 'I'm drinking now'

How nice. Thanks for making me feel so pathetic. Said that don't wanna miss tmr lesson and now you are partying so late at night. I bet you can't even wake up for tmr lesson. Call u also never answer or reply. Said that will make it up by skyping with me tonight. I've been online and waiting since 10pm+.
I'm totslly erased from your mind. Your brain is just left alcohol, party, new friends, guys.

You make me cry on my pillow few hours before enlisting. Make me lose my sleep my mood my motivation. I'm like an empty vessel right now. I feel so miserable. Really really sad.